Reality

I realized something again
I'm not a good teller
In expressing my true feelings

In the past year,
I'm good in concerning people
Know the way how to maintain the relationship among each other
(Is friends and family of course)

Slowly, I become numb
Not often tell them how much I love them like before
I've lost the trust in them
Weaker bond, less motivation
Feel scared to talk
Scared slip of tongue

I pretend like not to know anything about it
But, it's still cruel to me
Good to me perhaps?
I saw it with my own eyes
Trembling... I can't believe this is what they did it to me

They forced me to accept how cruel people are in this world
Maybe I shouldn't blame them
Is not their fault?
Because people are used to do so?
Alright, I got it.


Another lesson I've learned, the lesson of being human.

Sorrow

"Sebagai anjing dengan kucing"
Have you heard about this prop verb before?
I can't take it any more

When I'm home, they used to quarrel in front of me
They asked me to be the judger
Asked me to point out who is the wrong one,
Who is the right one
I did scolded both of them
My mother, my sister

I know is not a good thing to scold our mother,
But sometimes I really can't control myself
They are too stubborn!
So childish!
They like to play revenge!
What the heck is this?!

Both of them cannot stand in the same space, breathe the same air
Is like the magnet, when "negative" meet "negative"
They will repelled
They can't communicate properly!
They're killing me softly!

Can I choose to remain silent?

我，学会了

有很多事情，我们都会觉得很不公平
不公平，为什么他们会比你好？
不公平，为什么别人不会珍惜你对他们的好？
不公平，为什么别人常常抢你的功劳？
不公平，为什么你总是在为别人做事？

常常为它，为他，为她着想
但别人觉得你很烦
还狠狠地把你踩了一脚
好人当坏人看待
不公平

给你选择的话，
你要做一个虚情假意的好人？还是一个有话直说的坏人？

我，开始学会了
我要做好人，一个在别人面前，装的虚情假意的坏人
不要问为什么？
因为，这是一个很残酷的社会！
没有所谓的 “好朋友”

谢谢，我学会了。